Faeqa's 41st and Khidir's 15th month

Faeqa's 40th and Khidir's 14th Month

Faeqa's 39th Month and Khidir's 13th Month

faeqa's 38th and khidir's 12th month

Faeqa's 37th and Khidir's 11th month

Faeqa's 36th and Khidir's 10th month

Faeqa's 3rd Birthday

'da macam royalty', says her ummi.
apa ke tidak, in one week, FOUR times she potong cakes.

happy birthday bi, we ♥ u!

Faeqa's 35th month and Khidir's 9th month

Faeqa's 34th and Khidir's 8th Month

chicken-sick

sick. as sick as sick chickens. that was what have been happening since two weeks back. it began two fridays back when both the kids' nose began leaking and Khidir was coughing. since he was running a fever too, we brought the both of them to KKH. faeqa came down with fever the very next day which lasted for two days.

on wednesday, seeing that her fever was gone, we sent her to school. on thursday she complained of 'pain' at both her calves area but she still was able to go to school. when i reached home in the afternoon, Mak informed that her soles were cold - this is a definite sign that her body is reacting to the heat inside. her body feels cool though so I did not think much of it. Khidir, at this point of time had already gone through the whole flu thing - high temperature, cough, running nose. so he was pretty much recuperating. at around 4pm that thursday, faeqa's temperature shot up to 38.8. chop chop brought her to KKH again. this time, as it was a recurring fever, and add to the calves muscle aching complain, a blood test was taken. to eliminate dengue.

results came out and it was viral infection. thank God. we were advised that the fever will take a few days to blow up and then will disappear. it did shot up especially when the medicine has worn off. all through thursday night, friday and on saturday it began to ebb. saturday we were supposed to go to the family day event at my workplace. ended up only Mak and my bro went. becoz why, becoz its the MAK kepada budak budak's turn to fall ill.

since its the MAK right, the flu bug also very smart. sent the cip to attack. just the flu not enough, add stomach flu [read diarrhea] to the cocktail. life couldnt get any better. two whole days i was on liquid diet. on the second day add gastric-becoz-never-eat-becoz-if-eat-also-will-end-up-in-the-jamban to the mix. i think i lost two kgs just for that. an EXCELLENT diet method.

alhamdulillah im ok now. faeqa still have the running nose and a bit of cough. we have been keeping her from school for a week now. if the nose is still running next week, we will be considering keeping her for another week. as for Khidir, well, he was recovering really well. until today. his first tooth has just made his appearance and with it came a new bout of cough and running nose.

PFFFT.

Faeqa's 33rd month and Khidir's 7th month

her first day

we began preparing her months and months back, building up her enthusiasm and excitement. she seems to interact well with new peers but with kids you can never ever be sure, so we work on that negative assumption and relentlessly brainwash her on what will happen, what to expect and what she should do.

alhamdulillah, first day was a breeze. woke her up [thank God she's an easy riser], she refused to bathe initially [totally forgot about that little part] but managed to coax her into the toilet. put on the uniforms, a little phototaking session and down we go to wait for the school van. only when the van came and the bus attendant aka the 'nenek van' carried her into the van did she started crying.

after the van moved off, me and the husband trailed behind it like a pair of undercover cops on a bike. we reached the school first while the van dropped the kindergartners off at the opposite block. when the van came into view, we hid behind a pillar and watched the little people being led in a single file. my heart soared to see that she was no longer crying.

[machiam international sepais, the two of us]

the kids convened at the voiddeck to recite some prayers and sing some songs before they were led into the classroom.

first day over.

well done, im so proud of u sweetheart.

would have been....

he would have been 5
he would have been in pre-kindergarten
he would have been going to school with his sister this morning
he would have been with us

"Today is your Birthday, and like many more
I will always love you, even more than before.
I can't buy you new clothes, or buy you new toys;
I can't give to you anymore new joys.

I can't hold your hand and say I Love You!
I can't hold your hand and tell you why the sky is blue.
You are not here with us anymore,
for you have went thru that other door.

When God took you from us and chose you for him,
I thought my world would come to an end.
It almost did and I felt incomplete.

Then God gave to us some tiny new feet,
When I hear his pitter-patter,
I think of you always and I know that life matters.
I can't hold you in my arms and give you hugs and kisses;
I can only hold the memories of the days that I've been missing.
I can hold the memory of how you called my name,
and how we played those baby games.

I can still hear your laughter although it's many years after.
I will meet you at this very spot, whenever I want to be with you in thought.
It is your Birthday and now you are five,
I think of how much time has passed since you were mine.
I think of you often, almost everyday,
I will love you forever, forever and always,

Happy Birthday
Love always
Us"

(c) leana hendley

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we still remember, sweetheart
we love you and never stop missing you
happy 5th birthday ♥